11 April 2010

Living

As a kid, life was pretty simple. It was almost like walking on a straight line. There were no qualms apart from the intermittent exams . Moreover, it was like an enchanting story with a well written screenplay, revealed slowly. I never sat down and visualized what my future holds , I was busy living the moment . Little did it occur, this is what I'm heading for!!! And all I do now is think!!

Life as an adult is a thirst. A thirst for all things we cannot achieve and in the process disregarding everything that surrounds us. Are we all running this race ,wearing the wrong size shoes ? Most of it makes no sense, leaving us with yet another bunch of questions . That establishes the necessity of God. Or we would have gone totally nuts with every punch life throws at us. At the end of this journey, you meet a totally different person awaiting you , life has changed the beliefs, values and opinions that you started with . It is funny how we fit into those shoes so well with time, which makes me believe that we are in fact made of mud. Do our experiences make us wiser or does it make us plain delusional?

Even in a life filled with events, a void follows me closer than my shadow. I often picture myself standing still in the midst of a road amongst the raging traffic. Where are the others going? What are they doing? It makes me wonder, if I sat down and did nothing, will life be any different? Maybe life doesn't need my help, it has a mind of its own, that is already made up!!

All those who walked this path , why didn't they warn me? Or no amount of planning works in this case, and they knew it.